I am fucking weak. I used to be much stronger. I let my walls down for you and only you. And now i am empty. I keep trying to move on but i can't. What the hell is wrong with me? Boys were never an issue for me, i could have gotten over a boy so easily before. At the snap of a finger, they would disappear out of my head as though they never even entered. What makes you so special? How are you any different from them? :( Last night i had a dream. This wonderful boy and i were together. We were happy. He was so perfect. Looks, character. He made me feel special. But then you came along, all angry. Screaming at me. Screaming at him. I froze. The moment you were close enough, i left his hands and hugged you. You stopped yelling, surprised at my reaction. I didn't need some "perfect guy" saving me from my despair. I just wanted you. It didn't matter if you were angry at me, i just wanted you there for me. All this, its just fantasy. Nothing but a dream. I should move on, i need to move on. Soon. It will happen when it happens. No rush. If i was meant for someone else, it will happen at its own time. Patience.
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