dream a little dream of me

I live in the dream realm. I look forward to sleep. I enjoy the darkness that grows when my lids come to a close. Embracing the soft sounds in the background while I'm curled on my bed, still and vulnerable, leaving my body to rest for an 8-hour slumber.

It starts. The darkness turns into a huge screen just like in the movies. Familiar faces turn up on it and the scene starts small. Growing wilder as it plays along. A wonderland. An escape. A fairy tale. Even when it's bad, it's good. Every night a new story plays and I just lay there enjoying the show.

Grateful

I'm grateful for the people in my life. For the people i've met and i've yet to meet. The warm bed that awaits me every night after a long day. The arms that i embrace and the lips i kiss every day. The quick shock horror i face in the morning after looking at the clock in the morning. The legs that ache to walk the distance that i choose the morning bus over. The cheap humour. The giggles. The cries. The worried glances. The lovely calls. The faint scent of musky cologne. The long, deep sigh after a good laugh.

chirpy little school girl

Little life update; 

  Met people i enjoy being around

  Spent a week as a guy

  Slept in a tree house

  Went to the beach after 2 years

Birthday next week. Things on the wishlist;

I want you and you and you and you!

lets wear a smile

"The best accessory any girl can wear, is her smile."

Indian love

A lovely indian day. Those aren't my parents, those are my best friend's parents (she's the one in purple, i'm merely the one next to her). They kindly invited me to their family day on Father's day to have seafood and we decided to wear punjabi suits and played a little game of dress up. 

T'was a good day. 

eggs

We all need the eggs, don't we? How long can we go without the eggs?

On the side note though, here's a little update on the things i have been doing the past few weeks!

In the nude

Mut: Em, why do you like naked people so much?
Me: Huh? What do you mean?
Mut: Your wallpaper is always a picture of someone naked! Look I can see her nipples.
Me: But that Bridgette Bardot it's different.

Mut is such an innocent sweetheart! Love her

so i went to the zoo

how i met your mother

first time on the ice

Yea. I went ice skating, for the first time. It was no big deal.


Actually, it was for the first 2 hours, and then it started to get kind of boring. Trust me that 2 hours was the highlight of my day! Was a fraidy-cat and refused to let go of the handle for like 5 rounds till i finally lifted off and glided across the ice. It was kind of a 'what the hell' moment. Haha it was my first time and i did not fall! NOT ONCE! 


All i was thinking when i was on the ice was : don't you dare fall, ems, you're wearing a skirt and the ice will freeze your legs!


And i knew what the people there were thinking just by reading the expressions on their faces : What the hell is that stupid bitch doing going ice-skating in a dress? 

Whatever yea? And when you fell i, laughed at your silly judgemental ass 'cos this "stupid bitch" didn't fall even once! Who's laughing now?

It's fucking over!!!

I know, i know. Gifs overload! Whatever! I own this bitch called school! Yeah, what? I said i owned it! I'm no longer a fucking riversidian! You hear that, you're my bitch now! I don't want anything to do with you ever again! YEA! I'm so happy right now i feel like going on a streak!!!! Lol, no, but yeah!! Fuck yeah it's over bitch!!


YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Inspiring!

I love these, I find them truly inspiring so I have decided to share them with you :) You may or may not have seen them, but I'd like to share them nonetheless! I hope they have made you smile as much as they did for me! ^^ Also an added bonus, they guys are really really cut, so.... Hehehe enjoy!

x.

in pursuit of happiness

I shall share with you my little secret on how i stay calm, relaxed and serene. However these are just how i handle those tough emotions that drives the demons out of me. Lets face it, i am human. I feel as much emotions as you do. I used to be a very pessimistic person. I used to have terrible mood-swings, I had an ill-temper, I was terribly bitter, and looking back, i don't know how anyone really could stand me? It's quite surprising really. I'm glad i have changed though, i am pretty much nonchalant now. I know that a close friend of mine is not very fond of this change, but everyone has to grow up at one point or another. We can't live in the past. The way i handle such strong emotions like anger or sadness, is just not feel them at all. I let go early, nip it in the bud. I think the only reason why we feel such deep emotions is because we get too attached to them when they first present themselves.. So just learn to let go, and everything will be a-okay :) Okay let us begin.


Things i do when i am upset, depressed or just feeling lousy :


1; Brew a cup of tea, add an appropriate (well, an appropriate amount for me may be a little too much. I might even become a diabetic someday, oh gosh i hope i won't though) amount of sugar and add condensed milk. Stir them all together and you get a yummy concoction! 


2; Read a good book. I could honestly spend hours and hours reading! Reading would be the ultimate medicine for loneliness, to me. But honestly, reading does wonders guys!


3; Solitude. To spend some time by myself. It allows me time to think and space to breathe and let loose. I have always thought that it was more satisfying to go out alone than with someone else because when you are alone, you can do whatever you want to do. Eat wherever/whatever you want to eat. But if you’re with somebody, you need to think about where the other person wants to go or what that person wants to eat. This might sound really selfish but no, sometimes you have to do things by yourself. Independence is a state of mind.


4; Tumblr it up! rulestobehappy , aresohappy , happythings , and my personal favourite, fuckyeahhappy ! It'll definitely put a smile on your face hehe!


5; Call up someone who is close to you to help take your mind off things. I’d usually call Mutma hehe ^^


6; Pamper yourself with fragranced goodies. I do this A LOT. I’d light scented candles, rub divine body lotions on my body, have a long bath.. Anything really. The smell just calms me instantly it’s almost like magic!




xxxxxx kiss kiss


may we all be happy together ;D