Dumbass

Why am I so unhappy all the time? It's like I don't give myself a chance to be happy. I lock myself at home and refuse to go out and socialise. I don't like being around people. They piss me off. Sorry. I mean, the things they do and say pisses me off. I don't know why that is, though. I shouldn't be so bothered by other people, but I am. I try not to, but I can't.

Today I left my house for the first time after days of being home alone. I don't like it. I go out to meet one of my close friends, H, and I notice that so much has changed with her. And she noticed a change in me too. Not a very good change. An arrogant nonchalance. Okay I wouldn't say arrogant. I don't know.

I feel very different too. A very Red Forman sort of way. I feel that everyone that I come across deserves a swift kick in the ass.

right now

I am so sick of people. I can't stand conversing with them, being around them. I just feel disgusted with humanity at the moment. Early this morning i got my school admission results, and i found out i got accepted into Republic Polytechnic, to do the course I've always wanted to do. Even then i didn't feel like sharing my happiness with anyone. I looked through my contact list through my phone and there was not one person i wanted to call. Not my mum, or even my best friend. I don't know what i am feeling. And I'm pretty sure it is a temporary thing. I just don't feel like talking to anyone. I feel like being alone for awhile. Sigh. So I'm sorry if i don't reply your calls or text messages. And i especially hate men right now. So if you have male genitalia, stay away from me. 

Public transport

Can't fucking think straight! The asshole next to me keeps leaning against me like as though I am his pillow, get the fuck off me! Ugh I am so pissed off! I hate trains so much!!! They smell bad. The majority of the people in them are usually inconsiderate assholes, and people never respect my "personal space"! My back hurts from this curled position now! Gosh how I hate trains

first time on the ice

Yea. I went ice skating, for the first time. It was no big deal.


Actually, it was for the first 2 hours, and then it started to get kind of boring. Trust me that 2 hours was the highlight of my day! Was a fraidy-cat and refused to let go of the handle for like 5 rounds till i finally lifted off and glided across the ice. It was kind of a 'what the hell' moment. Haha it was my first time and i did not fall! NOT ONCE! 


All i was thinking when i was on the ice was : don't you dare fall, ems, you're wearing a skirt and the ice will freeze your legs!


And i knew what the people there were thinking just by reading the expressions on their faces : What the hell is that stupid bitch doing going ice-skating in a dress? 

Whatever yea? And when you fell i, laughed at your silly judgemental ass 'cos this "stupid bitch" didn't fall even once! Who's laughing now?

who freaking cares

Stop being a judgemental prick and let everyone live their lives the way they want to. It's none of your business what i do or don't do! Gosh i am so sick of people who judges and picks on every little detail of my life. So what if i'm like this or that? What does that have to do with you? Just shut the fuck up and quit being a bitch. Fix yourself before you try to fix someone else's! 

bleagh hair

I dyed my hair red on the 15th and fuck did it turn out badly!

It's fucking over!!!

I know, i know. Gifs overload! Whatever! I own this bitch called school! Yeah, what? I said i owned it! I'm no longer a fucking riversidian! You hear that, you're my bitch now! I don't want anything to do with you ever again! YEA! I'm so happy right now i feel like going on a streak!!!! Lol, no, but yeah!! Fuck yeah it's over bitch!!


YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Liars suck

I really hate it when someone lies to me.

I'm good. I'm gone.

Maybe i don't want to be friends anymore. Maybe i just want you gone. Slowly you are almost non-existent. I scarcely think of you. Its been this way for a while. It has been good. Though there are times i do. And when i do, i think about how you changed me into this person i never wanted to become. I became needy and sensitive and emotional. No more. No more have i been that way for months now. I'm proud of myself because i have become much stronger. Much wiser. I don't need you anymore, not at all. Not like i used to. And i know you don't need me either. Strangers again sounds good no? Please don't be mad, these are just the words we were meant to say long ago but couldn't. Maybe because we didn't want to hurt each other? Hmm. I'm glad you are doing well. I am too. You don't have to punish yourself, you don't need to make little conversation with me. You don't owe me anything. Not an apology, nothing. I wish you the best.

I hate sympathy. I hate lies. Stop it. Don't piss me off. I'm a psycho bitch when i'm angry so just don't.