with eyes closed, it's you i'm thinking of

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you
Tomorrow I'll miss you
Remember I'll always be true

I need this more than i think. Please be patient with me. I love you more than you know.

don't you dare look out your window, darling everything's on fire

I'm not sure about what i am doing with my life. Why must it all be so confusing? I just want to lay in bed all day and do nothing, speak to no one and enjoy the peace.

xx

Dumbass

Why am I so unhappy all the time? It's like I don't give myself a chance to be happy. I lock myself at home and refuse to go out and socialise. I don't like being around people. They piss me off. Sorry. I mean, the things they do and say pisses me off. I don't know why that is, though. I shouldn't be so bothered by other people, but I am. I try not to, but I can't.

Today I left my house for the first time after days of being home alone. I don't like it. I go out to meet one of my close friends, H, and I notice that so much has changed with her. And she noticed a change in me too. Not a very good change. An arrogant nonchalance. Okay I wouldn't say arrogant. I don't know.

I feel very different too. A very Red Forman sort of way. I feel that everyone that I come across deserves a swift kick in the ass.

right now

I am so sick of people. I can't stand conversing with them, being around them. I just feel disgusted with humanity at the moment. Early this morning i got my school admission results, and i found out i got accepted into Republic Polytechnic, to do the course I've always wanted to do. Even then i didn't feel like sharing my happiness with anyone. I looked through my contact list through my phone and there was not one person i wanted to call. Not my mum, or even my best friend. I don't know what i am feeling. And I'm pretty sure it is a temporary thing. I just don't feel like talking to anyone. I feel like being alone for awhile. Sigh. So I'm sorry if i don't reply your calls or text messages. And i especially hate men right now. So if you have male genitalia, stay away from me.